The memories I have that are forever bittersweet and life-changing which are now distant within my mind, soul, and heart... I wish to keep them forever eternal... Will you grant me the ability to keep sustaining these memories and allowing them to be forever eternal despite how there is no such thing as an eternity for all things grand? Grant me the power and strength within to revolutionize myself and the world.
Fav. Quotes
Tin Lu: "Black mooses are near extinction hence why they have their own personal zookeepers."
"A legal kiss is never as good as a stolen one." - Guy de Maupassant
"The fear of death is nothing but a restriction of life itself." - Akatora
"Like the fading moon, ruining the darkness, paling, these lips... I sing something, I pray for something, as I lose the sun that is you." - Kagen No Tsuki (Last Quarter)
"When we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness - and call it love - true love." - Robert Fulghum
"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world." - Bill Wilson
"Even if you don't like or know where you will end up... Trust that wherever you are this moment is the place where you should be for a certain reason." - Unknown
"I miss you more today than I did yesterday because yesterday was just another day away before today." - Moi
Sh0ut 0uTz: Everyone who wished me a happy birthday/gifted me/visited me. :)
Okay. So I really really really haven't blogged in a long ass time. My bad. Oh well. Forgive me my xangaa. >___<
Life's been consistent. Pretty much boring. Though summer was amazing. I'll never forget it for sure. I'll do a short recap. Long ass road trip to Cali. Spent a few nights at the great aunt and uncle's. It was fun. They're really nice. It'd be nice to live near them. :) Then a nice asymmetrical hair cut. WOOT. Soon after was a drive to Thanh Restaurant the Irvine branch for "my welcome party". What a liar Uncle Thanh can be. Later shipped to the home where I unpacked and spent time relaxing. Especially my times invading the Captain's room. Pwahaha. And the obsession my cousin, Dean, and I had for the Godfather. XDD Anime Expo was a blast. So was the aquarium despite... Tiffany's accompanying us with her terrible terrible temper tantrums and her baby tactics. Perhaps next summer will be another summer like this? Or similar would be nice. I shall pale myself out for you Captain! :D I cried when I had to leave Cali. It was very depressing. It's where a piece of my heart is and always will be despite having a piece here. I grew up there. Raised there. It's my home.
Okay. Now back to the current scene... So nothing new really really happened.. Except that I recently turned the BIG 18. I don't feel any different? Is there suppose to be a big sense of maturity and responsibilities that come with it? Because if so... I don't feel any different than from what I've been feeling for the past 5 years of my life. My birthday was a bit dull, I admit, but I was very happy to see everyone despite the failed outing. DANG IT MOTHER. See? I'm 18 and I still don't get to go out or do things like your everyday average teen at all. Seriously... It annoys me. I know that she just wants to protect me, but I'm growing up. There's not much more she can do to to protect me from the cruel world. I've already seen big chunks and pieces of it. So what's the point anymore? Well I don't know, but she needs to learn to relax and let go. It will be a very long road ahead of me to ever reaching any kind of independence.
School... I mean... COLLEGE has been okay. Boring and like high school, only.... Bigger with more strangers and with teachers that don't give a shit. *Nods* But on the plus side, it has a very relaxing vibe and I have more free time than before. Thank God. I can say that I'm happy with my choice because I made so many new friends and get to see my old ones. Not to mention I don't have to pay a single cent. Thank you Federal government for finding me investment worthy. I'm currently taking 5 classes which means about 15 credit hours? Yeup... Woot. 1) College Algebra for that easy A. ;D 2) History To 1877 3) English 4) History Since 1877 5) Political Science Fun right? Lol. It's okay. My hours are good and they keep me busy. I can't be left doing nothing or else I'll get lazy and none motivated. Like now. Ahahaha. :P ULTIMATE PROCRASTINATION FTW!!! Okay, so maybe not really ftw... Okay it is because I do better work when I procrastinate on it. But it's bad for tests. I don't like college for not announcing the homeworks and tests. It's frustrating because I just put off everything... UGH. Oh well. Time to speed up and get rolling.
I figured out what I'm going to do for my lovely Pola Behr for her birthday as her gift. ;D Now to find something for my two Mommies... Yuck. Too hard. Well that's okay. I already know what to get my blood mommy... Just Mommy Panther now... MMMM..... Oh well. I miss summer and my good times of hanging out with them, but that's what next weekend's joint birthday bash blowout is for!! Hehehe. :D So all good. Now all I have to do is be on my best behavior and have the Bacon Bits call me madre to ask if I can go. :3
All I can say now is that life isn't at its best, but its not at its worst state either. However, I can say that I'm enjoying where I'm at and can't wait to see where I'll end up next.
Sorry I didn't like your point of view Didn't mean to upset you or hurt you Find it hard to tell those sweet little lies Always finding fault when i could compromise
I just want a perfect world
Sorry i don't see life the way you do If i could i'd be just the same as you Every day parade the things i feel inside Not be frightened by the doubt that i can't hide
I just want a perfect world Something beautiful preserved And to take what we've been given's A trick i've never learned
So the world falls off around you You're standing on the edge Know you'll fall it just hasn't happened yet And there's no-one left to catch you And even if there were You're not sure you could repay such a debt
But i just can't seem to shake The old pursuits of youth Simple need to be The seeker after truth
I just want a perfect world Dumbest thing you ever heard But to take what we've been given's A trick i've never learned
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This song has been stuck on me lately. It's rather soothing.
Lots of the usual drama. Ugh. I hate life at the moment. I just want to curl up and cry. How stupid and frustrating. I hate being weak like this. I feel like I'm going to just break down any moment.
How much more can one person take? I don't think much.
I just want to hibernate my life away. How unfair life is for I can't even do that. I'm hanging on a thread. Sometimes I think my maker wants me to cut that thread. Am I alone on that? Maybe. I don't know. But I'm just about ready to throw in my towel. I did my best and my maker wasn't satisfied. I'm done.
Sh0uT 0uTz: My real friends. They know who they are. :)
So... Today was an uber long day. Nothing special though. That I can recall of... Hmmm.. However, it was a day filled with our favorite math topic... LOGS. Ahha. Fun fun times...
School: Uber long and uber stupid. Filled with meaningless stuff at the moment. Though the whole Balfour coming back means that graduation is coming closer. Seriously, this year is rushing by so swiftly for the most part, but there are days of where it drags on needlessly to the point of where I just want to shoot myself and have it be over with. I really do have mixed feelings on graduating. I'm going to miss a lot of people. D:
Friends: Gave M an outside assist with her math homework/quiz. It was quite an interesting process indeed. :D She whispered "sweet nothings" to me on facebook. It was entertaining. Lol. Well. There will be more to come on these moments of ours. After all... I'm doing the same stuff with her at the moment... So it's also good practice right? XD Let me help you help me help you help me. >__>;; I've also found out a lot of different things that went on that I didn't even know about. It seriously makes me think "What the mothertrucker." I don't even know who the jackass really is anymore. It's rather confusing. And bothersome.
Family: Nothing new that I know of. I just know that I'll most likely be coming over for Thanksgiving dinner. Yeup. For sure that'll be interesting. Haha.
Life: Fun despite of all my roadblocks. I'm slowly getting back on track... Kind of. Sorta. Well the jackass really just threw me off the game, but I'm making my comeback. Hell yeah I better be!! Or else... I don't know who I would be. The Kimvy I know would never ever let this affect her. So she's not. This is the time for her to shine. So that's what she's going to try her hardest to do. With no regrets. So baby... Watch out. I'm going to come back just like a bad old heart attack that was just way too whack and like it was on crack? Rofl. Sorry. I'm just way hyperr. :)
So... First of all... NEW LAYOUT!! BOOYEAHYUR!! Ahaha. Okay anyways. But yes. So I struggled and struggled to find a new layout after so long and tada! Hurrah! I'm now an academic slave, but that's okay. I'm investing in my future. So I must take good care of it.
School: Nothing new. Just the usual teen drama. Can you say BLAH? Most definitely. So troublesome and stupid. I've made new friends or I've become closer to some old ones.. It's rather nice.
Friends: I've made new friends!! Hurrah!! Thanks for being there guys. Gracias. ドも. Cảm ơn. Merci. Etc. :D Lots of good times together so far and hopefully there will be plenty more to come. And as for my "old friends". I'm glad you guys are here too. I don't know where I would be without any of you guys. We've come a long way together. Through the good and bad times. So... Lets keep it that way. :)
Sh0uT 0uTz: The people who took part in the car wash today to make it so awesome. :) Including the people who drove their cars by. xD
Hurray!! Another dull dull boring blog about my life that no one ever really reads except for a select few. Thanks guys. :) <333
School: We held a car wash to fundraise money for prom/afterprom/senior dues. :) It was quite successful in my opinion. @___@;; Well if we hold one again... It'll be even better because we'll have had this thing down now and be more efficient. It was pretty fun. I saw a lot of people that I didn't expect to see. Such as Miranda and Amanda. Thanks for luring in peeps by holding them signs! Sachin for being a dryer and Stephen for being both a dryer and car washer with me. :) Good times. Haha. So many nice cars went by actually. >___>;; Hahaha. Stephen... Dang. Peeled right out. LOL. So funny. Middle-age women always crack me up. xD It was nice hanging out with you guys again.
Friends: I hung out with Sachin and Stephen after school. It was pretty nice. Hahaha. Fun times although a bit awkward at certain intervals. >___>;; OH. I love your new hair cut Mish. Very nice and suitable to your facial frame. :) Makes you look like a mature youth. Hahaha. XD Now all we have to do is really one day go shopping together and have fun with it. Though I swear you will never get me to try on things with you. I rather hand you a bunch of things to go try on. :9 You're so cute. Hahaha. :3 Hang in there my huttle. Rap doesn't know what the heck he's missing yet. And when he does... Don't take him back. You can only be an open doorway for so long... And I hope you don't talk any more shit from your so called best friends. They don't sound very nice to me in my opinion.
Family: Ca, Ivan, Ivy, and my aunt all came over to my house today to go swimming. Sorry I wasn't there guys! Though you did tell me to be more social and go out more Ca... So technically... >___>;; Well I hope you guys had fun chilling at the "beach"... A.k.a. my pool. LOL. :) I hope you guys got home okay since the storm came right as you left. x____x
Love: How about we leave this as questionable since I don't leave my house often and I'm not rushing anything. Nor would I ever really know if I have any... Suitors of any sort that I know of without them telling me. Hahaha. :P
